Yea, this was something I had to ponder on about for a long while. He has done so much for me, lent me a book, taught me loads of stuff that would take years to pick up on my own. I feel bad that I would even do something like that, but I did, and the only way to redeem myself would be to learn from this experience and become a better person because of it.

I wish I could keep learning from him, but he says I am not ready for this yet. I think I am, I have the munchies for more knowledge. I want to keep studying koi, and never stop. My so called impatience is holding me back from learning more in bobs eyes. I dont think I am impatient, I think I am just eager.